Soo confused

I am so confused anymore.. I have no idea what to do.. I care for my boyfriend but after last night and all.. I just wonder if he ever gave a shit about me.. to me.. I don't think he did.. so I don't freaking know anymore on what to do no nothing.. He has changed so much and its so annoying.. Heck I no know one reads this.. so I am just trying to figure this out for my kids sake.. they are my everything and I would go nuts if I ever lose them